Baby...or babies?

I’m thrilled to say we got more good news today… my third beta level came back at 9,267 which as you can see from the chart below is just about perfect right now! My little one(s) are already overachievers it seems :)

Also in yet another first for us, my first sonogram is scheduled for next Wednesday at which time we will hopefully find out if we have a baby or babies!!!! With today’s news I think we’re finally starting to feel that this is real & we may just become parents after all! We feel incredibly blessed & are so thankful to be passing another milestone. That being said I know I’ve been a bit of a shiny, happy blogger lately & I just want all of you ladies in infertility (IF) land to know I haven’t forgotten about you. I know that there are many of you who are still struggling & if it’s too painful to be following me during this time I understand. I feel I cannot even begin to give sufficient words to the support that you all have surrounded me with during our struggles & I will never forget the pain and difficulties experienced on the path of IF. I guess I just want you all to know that I feel a bit torn, I’m so happy to be in this moment & to have received such positive reports following our first round of IVF/ICSI, & on the other hand I know there are so many of you, my sisters in IF land, who have received negative reports after incredibly long, hard roads. IF is such an intense, emotional path; it is without a doubt one of those experiences in life in which I feel that I am forever changed. It is a battle scar I carry proudly though, knowing that I pushed myself both emotionally & physically to endure. It is a struggle without which I would never have gained the compassion & understanding I now have in knowing that parenthood does not come easy for some & for which some have to fight intense circumstances to accomplish their dream. I know it’s a bit early in this pregnancy, and don’t get me wrong, I’m still worried about all that can go wrong, but I feel a bit like I’ve come full circle today. I was looking back at my first post, Hope & Acceptance, and at the quote I posted that means so much to me about what God meant when He gave me infertility. While I always have loved it, today I really felt every piece of it. And as the author wrote, while IF is a road I never would have chosen in the past it is one in which I now feel is such an integral part of who I am.